Sometimes I just feel really difficult to love.

Like I should somehow feel thankful to be cared about and at the same time apologetic about needing love at all.

And not just needing love, but needing it HOW I need it in order to FEEL loved.

Like somehow “I’m sorry” and “Thank You” are the response to every declaration at the same time.

As if “I love you” were a question instead of a declaration.

And NEVER just- I love you.