relationships – The Missadventure Chronicles

DJ Kool Said- LET ME CLEAR MY THROAT

Let’s talk about hard conversations 🤓 They’re hard for a reason. These conversations require a level of rawness and vulnerability that a majority of us aren’t comfortable with stepping into. But these conversations are the cycle breakers, game changers, and the moment makers. Often viewed as negative or having to be “mean”, hard conversations can…

It Probably Sounds Like

How do you really say “I’ll miss you for always but I’ll hold you never” in a text anyway? It probably sounds like “here’s this article it made me think of you.” To which the last response will always read “read on 2/14”- a grey bubble never to see blue again. The unspoken words carried…

Never Just I Love You

Sometimes I just feel really difficult to love. Like I should somehow feel thankful to be cared about and at the same time apologetic about needing love at all. And not just needing love, but needing it HOW I need it in order to FEEL loved. Like somehow “I’m sorry” and “Thank You” are the…

Bookstores & Daydreams

I imagine sitting at the bookstore café with my headphones in. So immersed in my writing that you appear behind me and I don’t notice. You found me here, you knew this was where I’d be. It’s 108 degrees outside and you knew I’d find some place cool where I could set up and dive…

Letters She’ll Never Send IX

I answered quickly in defense. I matched your energy to avoid the reaction of pain that was instant. “Look I love you but I’d never date you.” “You think I don’t know that?” “We’d kill each other. I think we tried this in a past life and learned that.” “I know that. Is that what…

Letters She’ll Never Send VIII

I need to know there are moments for you too. The moments you miss me so much it’s unbearable. Your chest aches just a little and you think about the way I smile when you say something absurd. The moments where you realize we were barely strangers when we figured out that the air was…

Letters She’ll Never Send VII

I still want you to love me, even if I know you can’t. You don’t even have enough to love yourself right now. I wish you’d let me love you.

This day

It was this day last year that I realized I could not unlove you. It was cold and wet and I found “home” on a trip home that I never intended. It was this day last year on a chilly fall morning that I realized when Johnny Cash talks about coffee it must mean love….

Her

“Babe you should come to the gym with me. You always have a six pack after sex, your body is almost perfect! If you just hit the gym a couple times a week you’d be on point.”-my boyfriend to 19 year old me I remember that day. The sheets on the bed were crimson red…

Note to Self: Be. brave.

I’ve had this blog for a little over five years it turns out. You know how I know? Because WordPress reminded me this year when it was almost time to renew my site dues. “Congratulations! You’ve had your virtual space for five years, now run me my money b*tch.” And that’s basically all she wrote….