How do you really say “I’ll miss you for always but I’ll hold you never” in a text anyway? It probably sounds like “here’s this article it made me think of you.” To which the last response will always read “read on 2/14”- a grey bubble never to see blue again. The unspoken words carried…
Category: writing
Never Just I Love You
Sometimes I just feel really difficult to love. Like I should somehow feel thankful to be cared about and at the same time apologetic about needing love at all. And not just needing love, but needing it HOW I need it in order to FEEL loved. Like somehow “I’m sorry” and “Thank You” are the…
What’s Age Got to Do with It?
Lately I’ve been contemplating at what age it is you accept yourself for who you actually are? Not who you want to be, who you’re trying to become, or who others see you as. I mean truly accept yourself? I feel like I struggle with this because for most of my life I watched my…
An Ode to LA: Three Years In
Today marks 3 years of living in LA. Four apartments, three new jobs, two situationships , one big heartbreak , and zero regrets. I knew I never really belonged in Jersey. Not forever at least. I came here because for the first time in my life I did something for me- not because my family…
What is there to do?
There are so many things in this life that we as humans do not have control over. Not the least of which is the fact that we will, one day, inevitably, die. And there is nothing we can do to prepare for, avoid, or change it. What we can do is tell the people we…
AnxietSHE- Power in Acknowledging
My anxiety has continued to grow to new heights over the last 3 years. It comes and goes in waves, as it has for my entire life, the difference is in the past I held no space for its existence. My thought process was if I just kept going, there would be no time for…
Bookstores & Daydreams
I imagine sitting at the bookstore café with my headphones in. So immersed in my writing that you appear behind me and I don’t notice. You found me here, you knew this was where I’d be. It’s 108 degrees outside and you knew I’d find some place cool where I could set up and dive…
Letters She’ll Never Send IX
I answered quickly in defense. I matched your energy to avoid the reaction of pain that was instant. “Look I love you but I’d never date you.” “You think I don’t know that?” “We’d kill each other. I think we tried this in a past life and learned that.” “I know that. Is that what…
Letters She’ll Never Send VIII
I need to know there are moments for you too. The moments you miss me so much it’s unbearable. Your chest aches just a little and you think about the way I smile when you say something absurd. The moments where you realize we were barely strangers when we figured out that the air was…
Letters She’ll Never Send VII
I still want you to love me, even if I know you can’t. You don’t even have enough to love yourself right now. I wish you’d let me love you.
The Missadventure Chronicles 