This day

It was this day last year that I realized I could not unlove you. It was cold and wet and I found “home” on a trip home that I never intended. It was this day last year on a chilly fall morning that I realized when Johnny Cash talks about coffee it must mean love….

Her

“Babe you should come to the gym with me. You always have a six pack after sex, your body is almost perfect! If you just hit the gym a couple times a week you’d be on point.”-my boyfriend to 19 year old me I remember that day. The sheets on the bed were crimson red…

Note to Self: Be. brave.

I’ve had this blog for a little over five years it turns out. You know how I know? Because WordPress reminded me this year when it was almost time to renew my site dues. “Congratulations! You’ve had your virtual space for five years, now run me my money b*tch.” And that’s basically all she wrote….

Letters she’ll never send VI

I’ve never lied to you. Always been honest. Never really held back. More than I really ever have with anyone else. It took me much longer with the people before you to get to the level of honesty and openness I have had with you. And yet there’s still this one thing I can’t bring…

Unraveled

I want to be unraveled as I untie the fabric of your being Each thread pulling another piece of you undone as I twist you around my little finger I want to be unraveled as your strings caress my skin getting caught in the knots that make up my soul Each tiny cord catching on…

Stargazer

Yesterday I went to the supermarket to pick up dinner and found myself wandering around the floral department. You see I had purchased a small bouquet of flowers a few months ago and when they died they had dried in the most beautiful way that they stayed fully intact and simply looked like they were…

Different Love

I am the woman you fear because he loved me different He loved me in a way that you wish you understood He loved me in a way that spoke to the cosmos because no other language on this earth could explain it He loved me in a way that words could only begin to…

A Moment III

“Are you happy?” he asked. She looked across the table at this man that was once her could have been.  God he was handsome. She leaned her head thoughtfully to the right. “Yeah,” she responded matter of factly. “I am…. It’s easy. Being with him is just easy. I’m not exactly used to it.” He…

Dream Invader

as darkness falls and blackness crawls he reappears night after night without reason, without right breaking through every barrier spreading his sensory disease, nostalgia, he’s a viral carrier even in slumber my body shifts flailing and flopping my minds eye taking apart our time, clipping and cropping his invasion? implanted scenes, his nightly creations beneath…