losangeles – The Missadventure Chronicles

Never Just I Love You

Sometimes I just feel really difficult to love. Like I should somehow feel thankful to be cared about and at the same time apologetic about needing love at all. And not just needing love, but needing it HOW I need it in order to FEEL loved. Like somehow “I’m sorry” and “Thank You” are the…

AnxietSHE- Power in Acknowledging

My anxiety has continued to grow to new heights over the last 3 years. It comes and goes in waves, as it has for my entire life, the difference is in the past I held no space for its existence. My thought process was if I just kept going, there would be no time for…

Letters She’ll Never Send IX

I answered quickly in defense. I matched your energy to avoid the reaction of pain that was instant. “Look I love you but I’d never date you.” “You think I don’t know that?” “We’d kill each other. I think we tried this in a past life and learned that.” “I know that. Is that what…

Letters She’ll Never Send VIII

I need to know there are moments for you too. The moments you miss me so much it’s unbearable. Your chest aches just a little and you think about the way I smile when you say something absurd. The moments where you realize we were barely strangers when we figured out that the air was…

Her

“Babe you should come to the gym with me. You always have a six pack after sex, your body is almost perfect! If you just hit the gym a couple times a week you’d be on point.”-my boyfriend to 19 year old me I remember that day. The sheets on the bed were crimson red…

Note to Self: Be. brave.

I’ve had this blog for a little over five years it turns out. You know how I know? Because WordPress reminded me this year when it was almost time to renew my site dues. “Congratulations! You’ve had your virtual space for five years, now run me my money b*tch.” And that’s basically all she wrote….