Letters She’ll Never Send IX

I answered quickly in defense. I matched your energy to avoid the reaction of pain that was instant. “Look I love you but I’d never date you.” “You think I don’t know that?” “We’d kill each other. I think we tried this in a past life and learned that.” “I know that. Is that what…

Letters She’ll Never Send VIII

I need to know there are moments for you too. The moments you miss me so much it’s unbearable. Your chest aches just a little and you think about the way I smile when you say something absurd. The moments where you realize we were barely strangers when we figured out that the air was…

This day

It was this day last year that I realized I could not unlove you. It was cold and wet and I found “home” on a trip home that I never intended. It was this day last year on a chilly fall morning that I realized when Johnny Cash talks about coffee it must mean love….

Her

“Babe you should come to the gym with me. You always have a six pack after sex, your body is almost perfect! If you just hit the gym a couple times a week you’d be on point.”-my boyfriend to 19 year old me I remember that day. The sheets on the bed were crimson red…

Unraveled

I want to be unraveled as I untie the fabric of your being Each thread pulling another piece of you undone as I twist you around my little finger I want to be unraveled as your strings caress my skin getting caught in the knots that make up my soul Each tiny cord catching on…

Stargazer

Yesterday I went to the supermarket to pick up dinner and found myself wandering around the floral department. You see I had purchased a small bouquet of flowers a few months ago and when they died they had dried in the most beautiful way that they stayed fully intact and simply looked like they were…

Dream Invader

as darkness falls and blackness crawls he reappears night after night without reason, without right breaking through every barrier spreading his sensory disease, nostalgia, he’s a viral carrier even in slumber my body shifts flailing and flopping my minds eye taking apart our time, clipping and cropping his invasion? implanted scenes, his nightly creations beneath…

Miss Me

Miss me When you come to me again With your, “I miss you” and “damn it feels good” Im begging you remember…. That it is not me that you miss but my vibes that you tasted. Your tongue entangling me in every wave. You- you washing over my senses. Drowning me in your tongue. Me?…

Shadows

At first I thought you chose her because she brought you peace… and that I did not. But that wasn’t it. No…. it wasn’t. I brought you peace. But I brought the type of peace that comes with the moon. The kind that comes from facing your demons… the ones hiding in the dark corners…

Call Me Alice

I lose myself sometimes. • Like the Hatter says to Alice, I lose my muchness. • I forget what it’s like at the top of the rabbit hole because I am so busy looking up I cannot see how far I have already come and that I am almost out on the other side of…